Sunday, December 30, 2007 . 8:43 PM
It's New Year's Eve!
Can't believe this year has ended.
Feeling a bunch of emotions now that a new year is about to begin.
I'm like happy and sad all at once.
This year truly has been pretty rough for me.
I honestly can't believe it myself. I never thought that everything that happened would have ever happened to me.
I guess things do happen for a reason and if I didn't have an experience to shake me up, I would always be somewhat naive and continue to live in my not very realistic world.
Most importantly, I have learned this year, the true meaning of friendship.
Even though I probably learned it the hardest way possible, I have finally seen my friends for who they are.
I always liked to believe that everyone has a good side to them and I try not to be skeptically about people's intentions. But I realized that's not exactly realistic....
At the same time, I have found so much comfort in people who truly love me.
Even though I have lost my closest friends, I also have realized who loves me for who I am and not what I can give them.
In the end, all I can say is Thank You......
To God, for protecting me this year and for helping me see people for who they really are.
To my family, even though I get frustrated listening to you all, I know you love me the most and nothing in the world could ever replace that.
To Lea my love for being there for me EVERY step of the way and for supporting me and understanding me through every situation I put myself in. I love u babe. Thanks for everything....... *hugz*
To Jie, Belle and Cel, I love u girls!!! I hope we'll always stay the same....=)
To my dearest valeebelly, for not hitting me on my head so many times when u felt like it. For the late night chats and the years of friendship. No matter how far u are, u will always be my partner....in crime. hee. kidding!!! =D miss u lotz.
To my classmates, for making ur presence felt even though u're so far away! Thank u for being such wonderful friends! =)
To everyone else whom I didn't mention (u know who u are), thank u thank u thank u!!!!!! =)
So glad the year's OVER! Cheers to a brand new year and many new resolutions!
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Can't believe this year has ended.
Feeling a bunch of emotions now that a new year is about to begin.
I'm like happy and sad all at once.
This year truly has been pretty rough for me.
I honestly can't believe it myself. I never thought that everything that happened would have ever happened to me.
I guess things do happen for a reason and if I didn't have an experience to shake me up, I would always be somewhat naive and continue to live in my not very realistic world.
Most importantly, I have learned this year, the true meaning of friendship.
Even though I probably learned it the hardest way possible, I have finally seen my friends for who they are.
I always liked to believe that everyone has a good side to them and I try not to be skeptically about people's intentions. But I realized that's not exactly realistic....
At the same time, I have found so much comfort in people who truly love me.
Even though I have lost my closest friends, I also have realized who loves me for who I am and not what I can give them.
In the end, all I can say is Thank You......
To God, for protecting me this year and for helping me see people for who they really are.
To my family, even though I get frustrated listening to you all, I know you love me the most and nothing in the world could ever replace that.
To Lea my love for being there for me EVERY step of the way and for supporting me and understanding me through every situation I put myself in. I love u babe. Thanks for everything....... *hugz*
To Jie, Belle and Cel, I love u girls!!! I hope we'll always stay the same....=)
To my dearest valeebelly, for not hitting me on my head so many times when u felt like it. For the late night chats and the years of friendship. No matter how far u are, u will always be my partner....in crime. hee. kidding!!! =D miss u lotz.
To my classmates, for making ur presence felt even though u're so far away! Thank u for being such wonderful friends! =)
To everyone else whom I didn't mention (u know who u are), thank u thank u thank u!!!!!! =)
So glad the year's OVER! Cheers to a brand new year and many new resolutions!
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Lea's back!
And for the first time in 2 years, all 5 of us are finally reunited once again!
It's so nice to have such a wonderful friendship for the past 7 years.
Once Cel and I start work, we're not sure when we will be able to have all 5 of us back together again but I hope whatever happens, our friendship will always stay the way it is! =)
And for the first time in 2 years, all 5 of us are finally reunited once again!
It's so nice to have such a wonderful friendship for the past 7 years.
Once Cel and I start work, we're not sure when we will be able to have all 5 of us back together again but I hope whatever happens, our friendship will always stay the way it is! =)
Friday, December 28, 2007 . 5:50 AM
Two days ago I bought a pair of jeans from Topshop.
Really really liked it.
For some reason, when I tried it there, I thought it was really nice but when I brought it home, I realized I should have gotten a size bigger in case I put on weight.
So today I went back in hope of changing my jeans.
I didn't realize that in Singapore (in Topshop to be exact), the sizes are all even nos. There's no in betweens. (WTH?!!!)
I was horrified cos' I was pretty sure jumping to the next even no. would be too big for me.
And I was right.
So which do you choose? One size too small, or one size too big?
I chose one size too small. =P looks like it's not going into the dryer anytime soon and it might be time to hit the gym!!! =)
Really really liked it.
For some reason, when I tried it there, I thought it was really nice but when I brought it home, I realized I should have gotten a size bigger in case I put on weight.
So today I went back in hope of changing my jeans.
I didn't realize that in Singapore (in Topshop to be exact), the sizes are all even nos. There's no in betweens. (WTH?!!!)
I was horrified cos' I was pretty sure jumping to the next even no. would be too big for me.
And I was right.
So which do you choose? One size too small, or one size too big?
I chose one size too small. =P looks like it's not going into the dryer anytime soon and it might be time to hit the gym!!! =)
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Thursday, December 27, 2007 . 6:34 PM
I finally deleted the blog.
I wasted more than 3 years of my life on a bunch of people who never deserved a minute of my time.
Thank you for being there for me before but.......
This is it.
I'm letting go now.....
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Today, I drove from bukit timah to ang mo kio to orchard rd during peak hour with two injured big toes and my parents sitting at the back seat directing me. I wasted more than 3 years of my life on a bunch of people who never deserved a minute of my time.
Thank you for being there for me before but.......
This is it.
I'm letting go now.....
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Boy it was tiring/painful. I think it took us like almost an hour to turn to lido carpark. Hate driving in Singapore...=(
When I finally found a parking lot, I realized that the bmw in front of me wanted to park in the lot I took but for some weird reason placed it in a position that didn't look like she wanted the lot. (I only realized it when she opened her door and gave me the evil stare.) My family insisted that i just take it. With the pressures coming from within the car, i took the lot and felt horribly guilty.
I typically ain't very aggressive on the road or in parking lots. After I parked the car, I secretly hoped I wouldn't bump into that lady again cos' she must have been pissed. Even when i was trying to park the car for like 4mins (inclusive of the deliberation of whether to even take the lot), she just stopped her car there like as if she was expecting me to come out for her. Scary.....
Tuesday, December 25, 2007 . 6:50 PM
My Loves......
Meeting the girls at Oosh for dinner was as expected.....fatabulous! It's been 6 plus years and things hasn't changed much. we're still the noisy, crazy bunch of mgs girls. Just a little more grown up. =) Miss u so much....Thanks for seeing me through everything....Monday, December 24, 2007 . 7:31 PM
Christmas Eve Dinner!
This year was probably the most different Christmas ever. I started out the day feeling like the grinch of Christmas. Christmas and New Year's has always been the same for me over the past couple of years so it sucks that things are different now. So, after baking the cheesecake, I played a little guitar hero and went to sleep till my aunt's family arrived! My brother on the other hand, did all the cooking so I decided to post the pictures of his success! (Btw, if they look vaguely familiar, it's because we cooked the same stuff as thanksgiving...just a little more upgrading. =) ) Enjoy!
This year was probably the most different Christmas ever. I started out the day feeling like the grinch of Christmas. Christmas and New Year's has always been the same for me over the past couple of years so it sucks that things are different now. So, after baking the cheesecake, I played a little guitar hero and went to sleep till my aunt's family arrived! My brother on the other hand, did all the cooking so I decided to post the pictures of his success! (Btw, if they look vaguely familiar, it's because we cooked the same stuff as thanksgiving...just a little more upgrading. =) ) Enjoy!
Chicken Anyone? We concluded that chicken in the states are a lot more unhealthy. This chicken didn't have quite as much juice as the one in the states.
Cheesecake cupcakes! My mum didn't want us to waste the batter so she created cupcakes with it! Turned out pretty good actually! The stuff on the top is some fruit thingy my bro made. It's made out of blueberries, apples and raspberries!
The Cheesecake! So very nicely decorated by my bro. I kinda made the cheesecake and he did the rest! Looks soooo much nicer than the ones I made before just cos' it's so nicely decorated! The fruits also compliments the cheesecake very well!
Nice little chocolate fondue.... courtesy of my aunt!
Me and the chef (flown in all the way from LA)!
After dinner I was a little whacked out. Ugh. I fell asleep on the couch while my bro and my cousins played the wii. Woke up at 12.30am when my aunt came to kiss me goodbye and my phone rang!
After two phone calls from afar (tho extremely late into the night), I felt so much better about Christmas. =) Even though I've lost some, I truly have gained some as well and I thank God for that. I kept feeling like part of me went missing when the truth is, God always provides.
I am so grateful for what I have right now. He couldn't have made my life any better.
Thanks for calling!!!
Tonight I'm finally going to meet the girls!!! I'm so excited cos' I missed them so much.... Can't wait....
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After two phone calls from afar (tho extremely late into the night), I felt so much better about Christmas. =) Even though I've lost some, I truly have gained some as well and I thank God for that. I kept feeling like part of me went missing when the truth is, God always provides.
I am so grateful for what I have right now. He couldn't have made my life any better.
Thanks for calling!!!
Tonight I'm finally going to meet the girls!!! I'm so excited cos' I missed them so much.... Can't wait....
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Merry Christmas Everyone! Hope this Christmas will bring you love and happiness! =D
Thursday, December 20, 2007 . 7:38 PM
You Never Know....
I was talking to a friend on the phone last night about relationships.
My friend felt that it's important to get to know a person fully before getting together with that person so you know what you're getting yourself into and you're not wasting anyone's time.
Unfortunately, I feel that it's impossible to ever know a person fully till you get together with that person.
I really wish I could believe my friend's theory cos' then life would be so much simpler, but the reality is, people will never show their true selfs till they know that they've got you firm in their grip. As friends, people will only show that much about themselves. It's only when you live together and spend every single moment with that person, then you'll know the truth about who she/he really is and how they tick.
Hence, relationships really is about taking the jump. Taking the risk that the person you are attracted to is truly themselves when they are around you. Relationships are about putting your heart in that person's hand and waiting to see if he/she will hold it and care for it, or smash it and throw it away.
Though sometimes, the perks of being in a relationship doesn't sound very appealing, at the end of the day, loving someone is truly an uplifting experience and it can be worth taking all that risk involved.
I was talking to a friend on the phone last night about relationships.
My friend felt that it's important to get to know a person fully before getting together with that person so you know what you're getting yourself into and you're not wasting anyone's time.
Unfortunately, I feel that it's impossible to ever know a person fully till you get together with that person.
I really wish I could believe my friend's theory cos' then life would be so much simpler, but the reality is, people will never show their true selfs till they know that they've got you firm in their grip. As friends, people will only show that much about themselves. It's only when you live together and spend every single moment with that person, then you'll know the truth about who she/he really is and how they tick.
Hence, relationships really is about taking the jump. Taking the risk that the person you are attracted to is truly themselves when they are around you. Relationships are about putting your heart in that person's hand and waiting to see if he/she will hold it and care for it, or smash it and throw it away.
Though sometimes, the perks of being in a relationship doesn't sound very appealing, at the end of the day, loving someone is truly an uplifting experience and it can be worth taking all that risk involved.
Sunday, December 16, 2007 . 9:06 PM
Couple more hours before I leave for home.... This semester (or this year for the matter) has been the hardest for me. I've been through an emotional rollercoaster and I'm glad the year has almost ended cos' I am really looking forward to having a better year next year!--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Way Back Into Love
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
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Had a little retail therapy today. =) I think it really does work to a certain extent. Though, I must say the feeling is only temporary.....I know lots of people are dying to go home, but for some reason, I don't feel that enthusiasm I should be feeling.
I've learned to enjoy the comfort of my own apartment and the ability to just do wat I want to do in my own privacy. I guess at least now when I go up to Indy to work, I'm more prepared to be on my own.....
Thursday, December 13, 2007 . 2:17 AM
Apologize By OneRepublic
I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah I said it's too late to apologize,
yeah- I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...
This is my latest favorite song. My favorite song changes everytime I play it too often. =D Anyway, Timberlake sang it too but I much prefer the OneRepublic ONLY version. haha. I just like the instrumental part of it more i guess.
My exams are OVER! Yay! One more semester down, last leg of the race left! Hopefully I'll make it to the finish line in 1 piece. =) This semester has not been an easy one for me and I am glad I survived it.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007 . 10:58 PM
One thing I miss the most, is watching my niece, VALERIE, grow up. She's really cutest kid ever....and one of the smartest as well. (all the valeries I know are really smart....I'm definitely going to name my child valerie!!) I just love her so much! =D Can't wait to hug her....
Sunday, December 09, 2007 . 4:17 PM
Change.Is.Constant.
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I was talking to one of my closest friends about how our lives are ever changing.
It's really so true.
Every semester that I've been to IU, has been nothing but constant change.
The only constant I thought I had was my life back in Singapore.
Unfortunately, now everything's going to be different for me again.
It really is like going back to a new life when I go home.
(No more mahjong kahkis, no more late nights w the guys (or no more 'guys' in general), newly renovated house and memories of years of friendship lost to haunt me....)
I used to think that my friendships back home will last me a lifetime.
But I guess situation changes and in the end, reality is that whether it's here or back home, people are still the same.... shit still happens, and I will still lose the people I once loved very dearly and there's really nothing I can do about it.
I am really scared of the change that awaits me back home..... yet I guess what doesn't break me, will make me stronger.
The truth is, the only constant is my faith in God to guide me through all these changes in life. I always believed that He put me through all the pain for a reason.... Even if it's not clear what exactly is the reason right now, I know one day it will be.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST DARLING LEANNE..... Thank you for being the great person that you are cos' I love u so much for it! =D I wish you only the best on your special day and I can't wait to see you at some point when you decide to return from the states... *hugz*
Friday, December 07, 2007 . 4:56 PM
I have a couple more hours of studying before my big exam tomorrow.Have so many things on my mind right now I pray that I can keep focus on what is important.
God has been gracious enough to pull me through a miracle second exam with my geography paper and I think now it's time for me to work hard and do well for myself...and for Him!
Will be done in 5 days! Yayy............
Thursday, December 06, 2007 . 4:53 PM
Perfect?
For a period of time in my life, I actually thought I had a perfect life.
I had everything going for me.
Job, love life, family, friends, school life.... I really couldn't ask for more. I had my whole life planned in front of me and I couldn't be any happier than I was.
Now, I've learnt there really isn't such a thing as a perfect life.
There may be a perfect period in your life but nothing's truly perfect.
I guess for the most of it, I am a very naived person.
Love isn't as simple and easy as I thought it was. Loving someone isn't always so easy. It can actually take alot out of people and love really is alot of compromises and sacrifices.
For a period of time in my life, I actually thought I had a perfect life.
I had everything going for me.
Job, love life, family, friends, school life.... I really couldn't ask for more. I had my whole life planned in front of me and I couldn't be any happier than I was.
Now, I've learnt there really isn't such a thing as a perfect life.
There may be a perfect period in your life but nothing's truly perfect.
I guess for the most of it, I am a very naived person.
Love isn't as simple and easy as I thought it was. Loving someone isn't always so easy. It can actually take alot out of people and love really is alot of compromises and sacrifices.
Life will never be perfect. Nothing will. But as long as we can embrance life's imperfections, we'll get through life and hopefully be happy.
Sunday, December 02, 2007 . 5:32 PM
5 more days to my first Final ExamDon't really wish for this semester to end so fast cos' that would mean I have to go to the next semester soon and I'd have to start preparing for work.
Kinda realized that there are a lot of preparation needed before I start work.
Need to apply for OPT, make sure I know the procedures to get my working visa done, need to plan my time such that I can get my study material for my CPA and apply for review classes.
The idea of starting work is exciting yet I'm still a little scared of the thought of not having the flexibility of "skipping work" and having nice afternoon naps. =P
On another note, the RAIDERS are winning the BRONCOS for like the first time since what, 5 years ago? I know there's still alot of time on the clock, but the excitement is driving me nutz and i'm so happy that they have been leading the whole game!
Saturday, December 01, 2007 . 2:07 AM
A couple of days ago, I actually went to Macdonalds to drive through and buy lunch. I ordered, paid and drove through without picking up my food.Only realized it when I got home and I was like...where's my food?!
Drove back and luckily, it was still there waiting for me. =D
I swear I'm losing it.....
