Monday, May 31, 2004 . 9:39 AM
Just came back from age group. Kinda bowled like shit.Damnnnn.... but it was still fun! I miss bowling competitively.
Anyway, Roland nearly died yesterday. Thank God he's still alive.
I tend to forget that US does have natural disasters.
That's one good thing about Singapore. We're too small to have anything happening to us.
So scary. Reminded me of Day After Tomorrow.
Somehow I feel that it's very real and very possible for something like that to happen.
Hope I'm wrong.
Brought my grandma to the hospital today.
Luckily her nose is alright. Just blood clots all over her face. But that will be fine after awhile.
My aunty is sick.
My dad says she only has one or two weeks left.
Though I'm not exactly close to her, losing a relative isn't the nicest feeling in the world.
I pray that she'll be relieved of her pain soon...
Cancer is such a painful thing.
If only there was a cure.....*sigh* Kinda scared.
Saturday, May 29, 2004 . 9:36 PM
Me tired...I just woke up.
Have to go to church soon.
Yesterday I woke up at around 2.30pm and went over to David's place for my first round of mahjong.
At night I had dinner with the AC pple.
Pretty fun!
Gary treated all of us to some chinese restaurant.
Felt so bad for him cos' it's not very cheap and there was quite alot of us.
After that, we headed to Xiangwei's place.
The guys wanted to drink and "havoc".
I met David and Shaun and Zhiqiang there and we went to newton for supper soon after.
So fun hanging out with them again.
Really miss those days...
After eating like 50 dollars worth of sting rays, satay, carrot cake, sotong and wat not, we decided to relive old memories and do our 'hang-out-at-david's' thing.
In the end, Xiangwei, Eug and Josh came over too.
We played mahjong...as usual...
Xiangwei and Eug got drunk. Really funny seeing them talk rubbish. Hahaha. More of Xiangwei than Eug though.
It was fun....
I miss hanging out with my 'brothers'. haha.
Friday, May 28, 2004 . 11:37 AM
Stayed over my grandma's place last night to look after her.Slept at 3am.
Super tired in the morning.
Just came back from watching Day After Tomorrow.
Pretty good show.
Interesting.
Hee. I told David I'm going to be more environmental conscious.
He laughed.
Oh well!! Sounds scary though. Can you imagine. Singapore will be gone in ONE wave.
Hee. And I'm in the mid-west of US.
In the show, I'd be frozen to death!!
haha. Oh well.
Can't wait for tomorrow! Another exciting day!
As for now, I need my rest......tired as hell.....
Thursday, May 27, 2004 . 9:38 AM
Today started out pretty well.I met Jie and Belle.
I totally enjoyed shopping with them.
Unfortunately, my grandma met with an accident and she broke her nose.
So I had to visit her.
Talking to my parents really pissed me off....
I've always believed there's a fine line between behaving childish and being immature.
Maturity is more than just how u act, it's the way you think, the way you handle issues.
I don't know.
I feel like going back to my studies now.
Wasting my time here in Singapore.
At least I know I'm doing something useful.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004 . 10:45 AM
Today...I did....nothing.Nothing at all.
But it was still a good day.
I received something from Bloomington that totally made my day. haha.
Made me a happy boo!
Though I got played out by Gary, I was still ok.
Lucky for him, I was in a good mood. hee.
Just watched Idol.
Looks like fantasia's going to win.
Kinda sad cos' for some reason, maybe because I don't fancy the macy grey voice,
she just doesn't appeal much to me.
I still think Clay Aiken rules. hee.
Just read Belle's blog. Right on girl! I agree with you!
The whole topic of what true love really is subjective.
But I truly agree that there's a fine line between being in love with someone for who he/she is and being in love with the idea of being in love.
Thank you for everything and for being YOU! *hugz*
Tuesday, May 25, 2004 . 9:19 AM
Miss you more each dayThere are so many reasons that I find to run to you.
Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am away.
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try, it just won't go away.
Are you finding it hard all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day
So many feelings, emotions running away with me
Cos it's you that I believe in and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong....
Today was "try-to-exercise" day. I went to the gym for an hour, bathed, then I went bowling. Realised it takes more concentration for me to bowl without a guard.
Kinda tired now.
Jie, belle! When is the make over?! Hee. I'm free from tomorrow on except that I have dinner tomorrow night. haha. =)
I think guys are mafan in every aspect of the word. They have such huge egos that some times they are so blind to what is so obvious. Why can't they let go and stop being so self-centred?
What is love?
Isn't it self sacrifice?
Isn't it seeing the person you love happy?
Then why do people still hold on to what is not there no more and see their loved one suffer under their hurtful clutches?
I just don't understand.
The lost of true, self sacrificial love in this world.
I don't know.
My take on this is that if you truly love someone, seeing that person happy is wat is most important.
I hope I'm right on this.....
More photos on webshotS!
Monday, May 24, 2004 . 4:58 AM
Just got back from shopping! So shiok. hee. I love shopping in Singapore. It's so much better than Bloomington.I just found out that Giordano, G2000, U2 and Esprit are all from Hongkong! No wonder I never saw them in the US. haha. So cool....
Going to meet some auditor later. My mum wants me to do her accounts so that I can improve on my financial accounting. haha
I have finally decided to do business. I realised that sports is too narrow a field for me to venture in. It's risky. Probably will never be able to make it back in Singapore after I graduate. Thus, I'm changing to business. Marketing and Management I hope.
I have to call Amy soon! Keep forgetting. so irritated with myself. hee. I miss that girl. So wierd not being able to see her in Singapore. =)
I think I'm not going to work. I wanna go travelling. hee. See the world before I start studying again. Can you imagine, right after graduation, I have to find a job. Once I start working, there goes my holidays. hee. So sad. the reality of working life....
Sunday, May 23, 2004 . 9:18 AM
Just came home!Today I bowled! It was alright. A little inconsistent but my bowling looks about the same. Pretty happy about that. I think I'm also going to train without my guard from now on..=)
Met Marcus for movie and dinner. We watched Laws of attraction. It was pretty meaningful. At the end of it all, they said that breaking up is the last resort to things and people would only break up if they don't put in any effort to keep things going. I guess it is true. They also said 80% of the women who say that they don'ot have time for marriage are in fact lonely. hahaha.
Oh well. i think God's throwing something at me.
Nice to hang out with Marcus again. I saw this photo of myself in his hp and reminded me of those days when we used to study together with Manfred at harbor front. haha. Still remember we used to do the dumbest things. haha. Kinda miss those studying-for-a-levels days. hee. Though it was tough, we still had fun at the same time.
Final destination's on. Kick ass show!
Saturday, May 22, 2004 . 9:45 AM
I'm at Janice's palce now. Just had BBQ with the class people. Pretty nice to see all of them again after such a long time. Missed them. Anyway... It was a good gathering. Rather hot though.Today I spent most of it at Victors. In the morning we watched national schools masters. haha. In the afternoon, we played mahjong. I think I'm full time mahjong player and part time holiday-er. hee.
I'm tired. Still waiting for Janice to finish bathing then we might meet the guys later.
Everyday has been packed to its fullest. Tired but fulfilling. Next week is another week to look forward to. People to meet...things to do. I'm starting to think twice about working now....
Friday, May 21, 2004 . 12:14 PM
I thought the wounds had healed. Apparently not.Old wounds still hurt. I guess I was stabbed too deeply to ever be fully healed.
Now I realised why I was so happy in Bloomington.
I left everything behind.
All the pain, all the hurt, all the scars.
I moved on. But I will never forget the past.
I miss Bloomington.
On another note, congrats to AC for doing such a great job this nationals. I'm so proud of all of u! Esp the girls. All of you fought till the very end and gave your best! I'm so happy for u guys. I've seen all of you grow up so much. It's incredible. To be able to take the pressure of it all is not an easy feat. Congrats again. :-)
Hope the interview went well.
Thursday, May 20, 2004 . 8:33 AM
Just got back from dinner. So shiok!! Had chicken rice for lunch and bak ku teh for dinner. This is the life. hee.Today...I slept...slept...and slept....I think the only time I was awake was when I was get the SSA letters done and when I was on the phone with Roland. (Then again, even when I was on the phone with him I was half asleep) haha. Oh well. At least I accomplished something today! =)
American idol later...I hope Jasmine goes man. It's about time. Although I don't really like Fantasia that much.... I think Jasmine's a worse singer. Fantasia just needs a nose job. heehee. Looks like there's only Diana left for me to support! This american idol really suck. Clay Aiken will trash them any day.
My parents were telling me there's no such thing as a fairytale relationship. All guys will turn bad and insensitive one day. So Singaporean guys are ok cos' they just skip acting gentlemanly part. I hope they're not right about it. Tho'...my dad's a good testament to it. haha.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004 . 7:40 PM
*yawn* I don't know why everyday I wake up feeling horrible. Like as if I'm sick or something. But like a few hours later I'd be fine. So wierd. I hate waking up like this though.Yesterday was another good day for AC. Lynette and Inez won GOLD!!! I'm so happy for them. Xiangwei and Ashley got silver and Ian and Leonnard got bronze. Hee. They're all doing well. Ac guys have 17 points and SA has 51. So it's pretty hard for them to catch up. =) As for the girls.....I'm really hoping for some miracle so that we can beat RJ. haha. Now I'm just hoping we don't lose to VJ for second. It's a close fight. Scary as hell.
Gosh. I wish I retained or something. hahaha. It'll be so damn fun. Oh well. Life must go on.... I have to grow old sooner or later. =)
Today is slack day. I wanna go jogging or something but the weather outside keeps telling me not to. Ugh. I hate the weather here. And the stupid gym is so far away from my house. Damnnnnn.... I need to exercise!!!!!!
Alrighty. I need to go and settle all the letters for SSA......
Tuesday, May 18, 2004 . 4:27 AM
Just got back from A div. Kinda tired but I'm so happy for them! Xiangwei and Inez won gold for singles! Well deserved! So proud of them! =) Just hope that they can maintain their cool and carry on the winning streak. heehee.I don't understand why I'm so tired. I think I lack of sleep or something. Not good. I need rest. Think tonight I'll try to sleep earlier or something.
I think my mum's going to murder me... I just realised that free incoming does not include overseas calls. So screwed man. Dunno how many hours I've choked up! *sigh* better go get a job... haha. I need to earn money and pay for my phone bill now. haha. Must wait for A div to be over first though.
Today I played arcade mahjong with xiangwei, yue peng and eug. haha. It's so cool. Electronic mahjong. How lazy can we get! hahaha. But it was cool i guess. Tomorrow we're going to play the real thing though. haha. yeahhh. I think David's place is the best mahjong place. I love his table. So shiok to play on......
I swear blogspot is screwed up. My blog skin keeps changing....ughhh... Just came back from watching TROY! kick ass show man! haha. I loved it! So sad Hecter died though. I liked him. Eric Bana looks so much better in this show. I reckon some guys look better in long hair. Like Orlando Bloom. Speaking of which, I hated him in the show. Useless bum!! Ugly guy dunno how to kill must kill the good looking guy. Ugh. Dumbass. hahaha.
I had la mein and xiao long bao with David. I missed this alot. I love the xiao long bao here. hahaha. And of course the la mein. Can't find such good chinese food in Bloomington. =P
Tomorrow AC's bowling! Really hoping they'll do well. *cross fingers*.....
